The minds of others.

Have you ever know someone that has committed suicide? Unfortunately I don't live in the strongest place in the world so I know a few, 3 this month if you want a recent count, was this person showing basic signs of it? Did they admit they wanted it? Could you kind of see it coming? Or did it just appear out of the blue to one of the most happiest and most beautiful people you know inside and out? This is what I just went through no less then 30 minutes ago. I don't know how to react.

I didn't know her well, just one of those people that you meet at a party, she was popular, very beautiful and nice and a tone of fun that night. Why would someone with a life like this want it all over? Its hard for me to understand, I have had some really hard times with what goes on inside my head, but I've never tied a knot in the rope and hung from some where high. What must be going through someone's head? What was going through her head?

The ironic thing is that we will never know what goes through their head the seconds before it happens, because they're now gone from this world. This is something that will always be in this world, but if we don't know what was going through there head or what was causing it can we really help it? I know all the lab coats say we can with drugs and therapy, but I only believe you can heal wounds and broken legs with drugs and therapy, not a mental illness even though it helps for a while nothing gets cured. I think for it to be cured it means it never comes back in your natural lifetime which hopefully is to ripe old age, and it can only be cured if at the start of you going on a journey to fix yourself everything goes perfect. You may not know what you need, but you need it happen just right. Even after everything you need has happened and have realised everything and believed everything you need to, then things get better. Start to anyway.

Please, I hope this doesn't offend anyone, these are my personal thoughts, and in the state I am in now I don't even know if I should be posting things on the internet, but I have no self control on normal days, so here it goes.