Only me

Hi, don't abuse me because yes I know there are problems out there worse then mine, I'm just having a rant because I know that no one cares what I post here and if they don't want to read it they don't have to.

I hated myself just few years ago, like I was really depressed, sorted out my friends and things started to get a bit better. I sorted out my friends because at the absolute low point in my life my goals in short form were.
1. Friends
2. Work
3. Not necessarily a boyfriend (even though I was young and stupid, but to still have my self respect when I finished high school, unlike some of the girls I had seen graduate before me) I really wanted a boyfriend even though I 'knew' this wasn't going to happen.

My friends was easily sorted out, I just needed to use my brain instead of that meter somewhere in my body that just wanted to make me popular.

Work was a lot harder, I got knocked back from almost every in town, then after the floods an angel came, someone who opened up a cafe and were new to town so couldn't discriminate me against where I was from or who my family was. It was perfect and not only did they hire me but they hired one of my best friends as well. Then I found out I got paid minimum wage.. Its ok though because the goal was to get a job and I got one with my best friend so thats more then I deserve and good enough for me.

The boyfriend part came to me a lot later, I got this amazing boyfriend who never gets angry or frustrated with me, never raises his voice or forces me to do anything I don't want to do. He is actually perfect and just so individual, I thought guys like him didn't exist and I didn't have to kiss a frog to get him, also he was impressed I at my cod skills which was a turn on for my instantly. I think he was just shocked I owned an xbox though, because he is pretty pro, but I'll take what I can get. The best part of this story is I had known him all my life, he was in my grade and lived just around the corner. I never really noticed him because he never went out much and he had his friends and I had mine, it was lucky we were even friends.

The catch 22 is that his parents are really strict so I hardly ever see him, its like here for minute then gone for week. Well thats what it feels like. We see each other walking to school and at school but I'm never alone with him, thank god I go to the same school as him, I don't know what I'd do if I didn't. Its been 8 months, I'm so certain we will make it a year. I'm going to stop here so I don't get all cheesy and stuff.

Now after saying all this I don't need to vent as much anymore, this writing all down stuff helps :)